Suicide is the New Black

Glee.....

2009-09-17T12:03:55Z

Hey, this was fun.

2009-09-08T00:38:05Z

From our dinner conversation Saturday for coreopsis & purplicious1 (if she's interested. ) -- Concerning how much a haircut can make such a difference.
Picspam of Caleb Followill

Attractive? Not so much.

WTF??

And her it is again. As art. (whoa)

I can only assume this was the result of a drunken barber.

Getting better, but not quite there yet.

Almost there...

Ding, ding, ding!! I believe we have a winner.

And also, replace the straight locks with some sloppy curls and I'm pretty sure this pic would match the mystery man from the new MS.

Looking for my lost shaker of salt

2009-08-16T03:43:19Z

For @coreopsis and @purplicious1 (notice the @'s. I'm so on twitter overload!!) -

see more Lolcats and funny pictures

Today

2009-07-13T03:37:53Z

I’m tired again.
I hear it come out of my mouth. I can count the repetition.
I know he’s reacting to it, but I still ask “what’s wrong?” as if I have no clue that the great evil depression is taking over.
I say “I’m fine”. I say, “I’m just tired.” I say, “Nothing.”

I feel severe. I feel overloaded. I feel left out. I feel tired.

The girls are sensing it too.
The little one cuddles more. She’s quieter. She’s more thoughtful. This makes me feel like a piece of shit.
The older one turns up the bitch. Intensifies the attitude. Talks louder. This makes me feel defeated.

If Dad notices, I haven’t noticed.

Something has to trigger it. Somehow I knew, even while I was praising you that you would let me down. Because in a lot of ways, you’ve always let me down.
I’m like your dog that sits by the door and waits for you to come home. And sometimes I get really pissed waiting, but then I hear the key in the lock and I get all excited and I just don’t care anymore that you hurt me, or left me alone, or forgot about me. Again.

And that is the heart of it. Accidents happen. Mistakes are made. These things are made up for with gestures of kindness and genuine feelings of guilt.
Occasionally.
But with you, I expect you to fail. It is like your special gift. If this situation were baseball, you would have a percentage of failure.
I want to be really mad at you.
I want you to feel hurt, too.
But it won’t happen. You don’t see me as being as important as I see you.

So I’ll just sit and wait by the door for you key. And forgive you. Like always.

But I digress.
It’s not all about the trigger. There are other things. I am surrounded by chaos. Nothing in my life is controllable anymore. I have no schedule. No one follows my rules. No one seems to be helping me.

I want to cry (and I am) but I feel foolish and self serving. I know it isn’t doing me a bit of good. I know it won’t make a fucking difference. I know, in the end, everything will always be exactly the same. The same arguments. The same dishes. The same bullshit. The same laundry.
I was looking forward to working on something I love. Something I cherish. Something that I can do in my time. In my head. But now I will have to wait. Again.

So long Mr. Jackson.

2009-06-26T04:36:54Z

Wordle tribute, by me, for my fav MJ song: Thriller.

My muse is back in town.

2009-06-01T03:28:29Z

With Saving Sabrina going into it's second round of editing, I find myself consumed with a new story. Twenty One Years is the story of three women - Lily, her mother Ellie and her stepmother Veronica. And because nothing seems to come easy to me, I am formatting the book into three individual stories, beginning with Ellie's, then Veronica and finally Lily tells us what to make of it all. In my head, it is really fucking good. On paper, not so much.

It's not that the idea isn't sound, but I'm having difficulty focusing on one character when the other two won't stop talking in my head. I sat for a couple of days and tried to write Ellie's tale, but Veronica keeps whispering her secrets to me. I'm afraid if I don't scribe them, I will lose them forever. All of it makes if very difficult to concentrate.

For example, last night I was writing very productively on a narrative for Ellie. I got to a section where I was describing her desire for a cigarette. At the same time, Lily was in the back corner of my mind, thinking of her mother from the stale scent of cigarette smoke. Of course the imagery and words flowed like water - until Ellie's demands for attention were too strong to ignore. Fortunately Veronica was scheming out of earshot or I would have been overwhelmed and lost it all.

Obviously my biggest problems are chunks of work hours invading my precious "thinking" time. That and then near impossibility of getting any time alone in this house, let alone on the computer. I have my heart set on a Dell Netbook, but at $360 it is not going to be living with me any time soon. Not that the netbook will cure my privacy issues, but at least I'll have more options.

Mostly, I just really wish I could box away Veronica and Lily until Ellie has told her story. That would be ideal. But separating any of the women would be detrimental to the whole tale as each is directly effected by the other. And in the end, if Lily isn't subjected to the achievements and failures of her mothers, she will never be the strong willed protagonist I foresee her to be.

I should really add here how proud I am of myself for this story line. (No, I'm not narcissistic. I'm just reminding myself for later that this really is a good idea and I shouldn't abandon it when it gets tough.) I never really thought my mind capable of a literary work. I always figured I would need a gimmick to tell a compelling story, be it supernatural or alien derived. I always figured stories like Twenty One Years to be reserved for those who have literary backgrounds and training. But honestly it is less about our knowledge of academia that provide us with great works of fiction and more the desires of our hearts and mind to convey a feeling of truth and triumph, even when neither actually exist in the work itself.

Perhaps I should sit the three women down for a civilized tea and explain my dilemma. Who knows, maybe they will decide to take turns from now on. After all, the mind is an enigma.

WTF???

2009-05-20T02:07:54Z

So I just watched Glee and I was pleasantly surprised that I actually LOVE it.
BUT
What kind of bull shit is Fox pulling?? They aren't playing anymore episodes until the fall. Are you kidding me? Now what the fuck are we supposed to watch this summer?
I am absolutely aggravated.

On a positive note: The new Harry Potter trailer is awesome. Eagerly awaiting its long overdue arrival.

You tell me??

2009-05-18T13:18:24Z

Hot hollywood heartthrob???
or
Fucked up ken doll?

Last Night

2009-05-13T12:08:44Z

Fringe = Awesome.

Monday -- House made me cry.

I never saw it coming

2009-04-07T03:26:47Z

OMG. I knew the suicide was coming, but I never thought it would be Kutner. Actually, I never even really think about Kutner - he's in the episodes, helping out, but rarely did the story line seem to center around him. And if it did, it wasn't eventful enough for me to remember. PerhapsDr. House, that is the reason he off'ed himself - no one noticed him, even when he was there.

That being said, I was moved by all the other characters I do notice. Taub coming to terms personally with his own suicidal past. Thirteen dealing with Foreman. Foreman being Foreman (honestly, the man is a dr, he can have that stick surgically removed). Wilson reliving the loss of Amber, but also stepping up and actually "understanding" House. And House, lacking in everything human except his abillity to desipher human nature, finally reconciling that sometimes you just can't see it coming.

Looks like a good follow-up, although I think they've beaten that Cameron/ House horse to death. Maybe they have a twist that will keep us interested.

In the end, the episode was quite moving. I was just on the brink of tears when they flashed the "Kutner Memorial" on Fox. com and I started laughing so hard that I almost fell off the couch. It seemed like a such a stupid thing to do.

They wasted no time in updating wikipedia - Dr. Lawrence Kutner (deceased) (Kal Penn) is a sports medicine specialist. Out of all the fellows, Kutner is the most enthusiastic and the one most likely to go along with House in taking risks. He was shown to have committed suicide by gunshot in the right temple in the 20th episode of season 5. He has a memorial site at fox.com/kutner.

I hope Kal Penn has a very successful career post -House.

Yeah for Queryfail Day!

2009-03-06T02:42:41Z

Today I was totally distracted by #Queryfail on Twitter.
You can read all about it here.

Twit-wit

2009-03-05T01:01:33Z

Hi, I'm MoXie and I'm a twitaholic.

In a matter of days I have become completely obsessed with Twitter. It all started with Stephen Fucking Fry being so damn cheeky and updating like ever five minutes. And it's not like my problem is greater than his, he's in Mexico or Panama or Chile or some shit. I mean I'm just in my lab at the computer. Sorry, I just got a little worked up.

My new tool, Tweetdeck offers a great world where I don't have to open the browser to access my feed. Its great. It dings and I rush to click the mouse like Pavlov's fucking dog. But it's not like I'm not getting something out of it. I mean how was my life possibly complete before I walked with Alan Davies (omg, you should see the 'stach) through the preparation of a boxed falafel mix. Or sat and read as Neil Gaiman talked about the amazing new collaborative effort he can't talk about yet. Or understood the inner CRAZY that is Brent Spiner (seriously, he's nuts). Did I mention RBrand and PJupitus.

It's really not all bad. For example, I read a top notch interview with Henry Rollins today that made me really really wish I didn't hate Murfreesboro so much. And I saw a killer link for the most amazing musical video ever (you might have to wait until tomorrow to view the page.) Or the funniest dog vid ever. And I swear I only open the window ~~to look at it when I think I might have heard~~ when I hear the ding. No, I didn't just look at it, I swear.

I am sure that I will come to terms with this, the same way that I did with FB and LJ. And I have found a number of agents, publishers and editors who are just overflowing with publishing and writing advice. And I already have more random followers there than at my long standing web page and LJ.

Also = George & Gnomes?

UPDATE - I posted this on my other site. Yes, I am addicted to blogging too.

Has George always slept with Gnomes?

2009-03-04T04:11:59Z

Being Human both lived up to my expectations and failed beautifully all at the same time.

Score - George's bedroom is covered in gnome wallpaper. How did I not know this?
Fail - Only realizing this in the final ep.

Score - The wolf change effects were spot on!
Fail - The Wolf was lame-ass. I've seen better gorilla suits.

Score - Annie is a bad-ass poltergeist! ("We should make you an action figure!!")
Fail - She can't wear a bad-ass costume to go with it.

Score - George ate the old fat ugly vamp.
Fail - He's being replaced by an even older and uglier vamp.

Score - George and Nina can get their wolf on together!!
Fail - It will probably not go as well as it sounds.

Score - http://www.bbc.co.uk/blogs/beinghuman/2009/02/being_human_recommissioned_for.html
Fail - We'll have to wait for it.

I am actually surprised by how much I love this show.   After I watched the first episode, I wasn't that impressed, but I liked the idea.   After the second, I couldn't stand Annie but Mitchell and George were awesome.   Once Annie stopped being a doormat, I totally fell in love.
There are 3 things I want to see next season: 1) More flippin episodes -six is just a 'cock-tease'.   Twelve is a joke as well, but since it seems standard, I will not complain. 2) I want Annie to use her super -ghostly powers to change her clothes. (She probably doesn't need 'ghost' power to make this work, but for the love of God - gray on gray?? 3) More attractive vampires. I know there are pretty British men (and women) who are interested in being vamped.   They live forever for Pete's sake. No sense turning them all when their ancient (or ugly).   Oh and Herrick's irritating assistant.   If she returnes, I want her dead in the first 5 minutes!!

OH, and since I've been debating this for the past week with my FB posse - If I had to choose between being a vamp, wolf or ghost, I would be the ghost. I am sure that I would mourn the loss of food more than life, but everything requires sacrifice.

Why can't the BBC run TV shows for a decent amount of time??

2009-02-25T18:10:04Z

Who in the world thought running a TV show for 6 episodes was a good idea? I realize television in other countries is not like American TV, but 6 episodes is not enough time to accumulate a following for a show, let alone a whole run. And why is it the more interesting the show seems the shorter it seems to be? Twelve episodes is hardly what I would call a season, although I understand we are spoiled with 22-24 episodes per season here, but at least it's an attempt. With twelve, there is plenty of time to get to know the characters, learn to hate some, be happy when they get whats coming to them, and excitedly wait for a new season. With six, your just starting to care- and its over.
All that being said, I pitched a hissy-fit yesterday when I realized that next week is the end of Being Human. Apart from sounding like the beginning of a bad joke, it was one of the most original shows I have seen lately.

And speaking of awesome TV, I super hooked on BSG, only to find out there are 4 episodes left. I just can't seem to win.

And in non TV news, I am having 2/3rds of my cats fixed today. The other 1/3rd, the breeder, is too far along with another fucking pregnancy to fix her. So we are going to have kittens. Again. Bastard.

Torchwood

2009-01-29T05:18:48Z

OMFG - They killed Owen and Tosh. Bastards.

Also, why do all incredibly attractive charismatic men have to be gay? And why am I so extremely attracted to them??

Coreopsis...

2009-01-24T21:33:05Z

Torchwood is fucking AWESOME!!!!!!!!!

Must See TV (and other obsessions)

2009-01-23T04:33:50Z

Thursdays are overwhelming for me now. Not only do I have the regulars - Smallville & Supernatural, but now Hell's Kitchen AND Bones are coming on at the same damn time!! This isn't so bad since I usually watch the boys online anyway. But now I am going to have to add Bones to my online watching since I will still be carting the Princess to her rendezvous with the boyfriend at church. Couple that with my new found love of British TV (Thanks a lot coreopsis ) which seems to fill up my weekends. So it seems I am now a slave to not only my tv, but also my PC. Damn, I'm such an addict!!

Tonight, however, I didn't have to drive the princess anywhere [she is spending this week under the bridge with the troll] so I was treated to not 1 but 2 hilarious episodes of Bones. I was also fortunate to find both the Smallville and Supernatural downloads very early this evening so I might even be getting me some Clark Kent before the night is through.

That will depend, of course, on the cold medicine allowing me to stay awake. Yes, I am sick - again. I have been since Sunday only now I am worse and cranky. I am also very behind on my work which has me sitting on the pc posting listings instead of in the bed sleeping this off.

Alright, enough bitching. Back to TV
I have a new fav show - The United States of Tara. It is the story of a family who (very humorously) deals with the mother's multiple personality disorder. Toni Collette plays this mother of a sexually active bombshell teen and her Suzy-homemaker gay brother. Who is lucky enough to be married to John Corbett. Mom apparently cannot handle stress and becomes one of 3 other personalities to deal with her problems. It rocks, you should watch it. That's all I have to say about that.

As for other TV, Fringe is back (yeah), 24 is rockin, and House and Cuddy are definitely gonna do that dirty. Life is good.

Oh and I swiped this meme off coreopsis who in turn got it from another who probably got it from another.....

Your International Spy Name is Dark Intrigue

Your Code Name: The Dancer

You Reside in: Rome

Why You're a Good Spy: You're good with gadgets

What's Your International Spy Name?

The name makes me feel kind of dirty. :)

The Queen Smells Like Cabbage

2009-01-13T12:59:53Z

I forgot how much I enjoyed watching QI!! I am so glad that Alan Davies went back to a decent hair style (although I have still yet to see the 5th series, so it could have happened ages ago)

WOW! What an interesting plot twist in 24 (although I am actually not as surprised as I feel I should be. Still, the beginning 5 minutes was 'holy shit - elizabeth you might not want to watch this' goodness and it just kept getting better. Also, I KNEW Tony couldn't be all bad cause, well, it's Tony.

Oh and -jeanine garofalo?? what is she like 4'5". I figured when she was standing next to FBI boss man that he was just freakishly tall, but dude, even "Agent Renee whoever" (thanks coreopsis ) was like a full head taller than her. Anyway, I never noticed it before.
Anyway, I got caught up on Demons and I am anxious for more, so I must like it. Ruby is awesome. Isn't she the same chick that played the sorcerers daughter in the Merlin ep where they trick Arthur into loving her?? anyway, B is off work this week so we can probably finish the Merlin eps.

Finally, a survey that doesnt SUCK

2009-01-09T00:16:00Z

What a great survey! (No really, it is.) My BFF wrote it, but it took me forever to answer it all, so I am gonna pass it around. I would LOVE to hear YOUR responses (and by YOUR, I mean all of y'all)

1. Are you one of those people who constantly has a song (or two) playing in your head? **YES

2. If the answer to #1 is “Yes” please tell me what’s playing up there right now and whether or not you are enjoying the fact that it’s stuck in your head.
**"Riot" by Three Days Grace. It has been there since before xmas. I think it is trying to tell me to get off my ass and do something!!

3. If the answer to #1 is “No” please try to explain what it’s like to NOT have a constant soundtrack running in your mind. ( I ask b/c I can’t imagine . . .)
**Yeah, right.

4. What’s your favorite city & why?
**I <3 Washington, DC.
.....a) my daddy lives there
.....b) ANYTHING you want to do is easily accessible (especially in Dad's conversion van with wide screen TV and a handicap parking pass!)
.....c) all the bullshit of politics doesn't seem to infiltrate the beauty of the museums and monuments - it really is beautiful
.....d) there is never any pressure at all when I am there

5. Tell me about the most beautiful place you’ve ever visited.
**Probably Fall Creek Falls, in the wee hours of the morning after a sleepless night. I remember the bridge and the red rock and the way the corridor of trees around the blanket of fog on the water looked like an entrance to another world. And the deer jumping beside the car as we left. Years later I went back and took pictures of the same spot - they were beautiful, but not the same.

6. What was your first concert or live musical experience?
**I think it was the Monkees in like '85 or '86. I was so in love with Davy Jones, then I saw him OLD. eeeew.

7. Ever had a spiritual moment at a live music event? Do tell.
**Both Pearl Jam shows I have attended (NOLA & NC) although I think the experiences were more freeing than spiritual. They were definitely the most fun I have ever had a live musical experience.

8. Do you have any reoccurring dreams? Describe . . .
**I have 2 kinds of reoccurring dreams - the kind where I have the same dream over and over AND the kind where I dream about mundane shit that ends up happening the next day. (The later is probably from an extreme lack of excitement of any kind in my life. Of course that seems to be changing daily as of late, but that is for a different post.)
When I was a kid, I had a reoccurring dream about me and my mother, set in the old west. She was inside the burning framework of a building, honestly quite safe from the flames. But I was panicking and trying to get the men on their horses to help her. When they wouldn't help, I would start walking though the maze of flames trying to get to her. Sometimes I would make it to her before I woke up. When this happened, I would lead her to the side of the room and we would step over the flames together. When I would wake up from these dreams, I would be less scared and more angry that she didn't just get out on her own. The times I would wake up before I got to her, I would be terrified.
I stopped having these dreams about the time I reached my teen years. (I have lots more, but one is enough for this post.)

9. Pet owners: do you sing to your pets; if so what do you sing?
**I sing to myself, loudly. Sometimes the cats listen, but usually they hiss at me and run away. I make up songs when I sing to Sparky because I like to watch him cock his head when I sing "Sparky dog".

10. Congratulations! You have been chosen to spend a year in an experimental biosphere. All your needs and comforts are provided for. You get to choose: 3 books, 3 movies, 3 CD’s and 3 people to bring along. What/whom do you choose?
3 Books (why are all my favorite books in sets!!!)
THE STAND, Stephen King
CHOKE, Chuck Palahniuk
PLAY IT AS IT LAYS, Joan Didion

3 Movies
(How am I supposed to choose just 3 Harry Potter films???? j/k)
Love Actually
Shaun of the Dead
Wonderfalls box set (with The Middle Man smuggled inside)

3 CD's
Pearl Jam, "VS."
Three Days Grace, (self-titled)
FightClub (the soundtrack)

3 People - ( I am going under the assumption that my family will have to remain behind, so...)
-Johnny Depp - cause the biosphere will need pretty people and he can perform plays for our entertainment (also I couldn't think of just one of his movies I would want to bring)
-Mom - cause she could completely use the break
-Lori - cause no matter how much time or space we spend apart, it always just feels like a blink in time (and also cause I know she would bring really cool movies, books and cds that I could borrow) [coreopsis, I would have brought you, but three years would be way too long for you to be away from your fandom - think of all the episodes you would have to catch up on *g*]
-[of course E has stowed away in my luggage - shhhh don't tell anyone. I didn't even think about bringing the princess because she would never stand to be away from er boyfran for that long]

11. Amazing! You have built the first working Time Machine! Where/when are you going first & why?
**Five years into the future. I wouldn't want to linger. I would just like to see where I am and the steps that get me there. And if my life is totally fucked up, I want the opportunity to fix it. (Of course, people would say that knowing the future would undoubtedly change it because you would assume events will come to pass instead of your actions bringing them forth - ... see what I just did there?? B's right about me.)

12. Now take that Time Machine back yourself at 16. You can send 1 message to that kid. What is it?
**I would tell myself that I actually can write and I enjoy it. Somewhere between 15 and 16, I decided I was a shitty writer. Actually, I think it was my Jr yr English teacher. She was a total bitch.

13. You wake up to gray, cold rain and another day working at the Salt Mines. What gets you up and moving?
**When I used to do that sort of thing, it was more out of a sense of obligation more than anything else. Also, I have to get up with the kids so that is a pretty good motivator.

14. Have you ever seen or heard a ghost? Would you like to be a ghost hunter?
**Once, just a couple of months ago, I was sitting at the computer (which faces away from the backdoor). Elizabeth always tries to sneak up behind me to scare me. (She never does because I could hear her breath in a helicopter.) Anyway, I was sitting here, in the silence, looking at Cake Wrecks and something touched me on the shoulder. I said, "Holy Shit, Liz, you got me!" and turned around really fast. There was nothing behind me. I yelled for Liz and jumped up from the chair. She was sleeping in my bed (other end of the house) with both of the cats. If a true ghost hunter has to deal with shit like that, I would much rather just be a vampire slayer!

15. Would you rather take a spontaneous road trip or plan a more formal vacation?
**I would much rather just hop in the car and take off, but my anxiety would never allow for that. :) I think if I didnt' have to worry about paying for anything (and the kids school schedules), I would be more apt to just get in the car and drive.

16. I’m coming over for dinner! What are you gonna cook for me?
**Anything you want!! I was just thinking about what to cook for the Liquor of the Month club meeting. I'm leaning towards fajitas, but only if I can find the lime jerk marinade I got the last time I made them. DELICIOUS.
OH, and I would have to make you one of my ChocoMochaLatte Bundt Cakes.
You can bring the wine. :)

17. Your luck is amazing! You just won a Pie Throwing raffle. You get to hurl a banana cream pie at 3 people of your choosing. Who’s it gonna be?
A.-My former (but still current) district manager because he is such a twat.
B.The princess, because she once asked me to throw a pie in her face (she thought it would be fun.)
C.-I would probably use the last one to pie myself, to remind me not to be so serious all the time.
(Now, if you had said mud pies.......)

18. Jeez-Lou-eez! Your luck is phenomenal. You just won 150 Million in the lottery! Now that money is no longer an issue, what will you do with the rest of your life (please don’t say “shop!”)?
**First order of business - Go to St. Jude and give them money, then I wanna talk to the kids there. (I really wanna pat their precious bald heads, but I was told by someone that it would be insensitive, so I guess I will just give them hugs instead.)
Then I would like to self-treat my anxiety and take off on spontanious road, boat and plane trips. Oh, and I'm taking you with me. :)

19. Worst song ever recorded? (I know that’s a toughie, but just pick something.)
**(Easiest question in the whole list) "Lips of an Angel" by Hinder. Just thinking about the song makes me want to go deaf.

20. Last book you read? Was it good? If your answer is “I don’t read books,” well, congratulations! You’re part of the problem!
**CHOKE by Chuck Palahniuk and it was AWESOME. I love that the writing is so grimy and dirty. It gets into the moldy corners of your mind. Before that I read A CLOCKWORK ORANGE as research for my book. I'd never read. I picked it at random for my main character to read in school, but I was amazed how perfectly Alex's thought process reflected her own.

21. Last question! What’s the one talent you don’t have that you wish you did?
**I wish I could play the drums. Somehow my hands and feet cannot work separately from each other. For that matter, I would like to play ANY musical instrument because, alas, I cannot.

Wow! TMI.

Now that I have written my memoirs, I would like to hear YOURS. Copy and paste the questions below into your own note and get to work. :)

1. Are you one of those people who constantly has a song (or two) playing in your head?

2. If the answer to #1 is “Yes” please tell me what’s playing up there right now and whether or not you are enjoying the fact that it’s stuck in your head.

3. If the answer to #1 is “No” please try to explain what it’s like to NOT have a constant soundtrack running in your mind. ( I ask b/c I can’t imagine . . .)

4. What’s your favorite city & why?

5. Tell me about the most beautiful place you’ve ever visited.

6. What was your first concert or live musical experience?

7. Ever had a spiritual moment at a live music event? Do tell.

8. Do you have any reoccurring dreams? Describe . . .

9. Pet owners: do you sing to your pets; if so what do you sing?

10. Congratulations! You have been chosen to spend a year in an experimental biosphere. All your needs and comforts are provided for. You get to choose: 3 books, 3 movies, 3 CD’s and 3 people to bring along. What/whom do you choose?

11. Amazing! You have built the first working Time Machine! Where/when are you going first & why?

12. Now take that Time Machine back yourself at 16. You can send 1 message to that kid. What is it?

13. You wake up to gray, cold rain and another day working at the Salt Mines. What gets you up and moving?

14. Have you ever seen or heard a ghost? Would you like to be a ghost hunter?

15. Would you rather take a spontaneous road trip or plan a more formal vacation?

16. I’m coming over for dinner! What are you gonna cook for me?

17. Your luck is amazing! You just won a Pie Throwing raffle. You get to hurl a banana cream pie at 3 people of your choosing. Who’s it gonna be?

18. Jeez-Lou-eez! Your luck is phenomenal. You just won 150 Million in the lottery! Now that money is no longer an issue, what will you do with the rest of your life (please don’t say “shop!”)?

19. Worst song ever recorded? (I know that’s a toughie, but just pick something.)

20. Last book you read? Was it good? If your answer is “I don’t read books,” well, congratulations! You’re part of the problem!

21. Last question! What’s the one talent you don’t have that you wish you did?

Alright, now your turn. Your instructions are at the bottom of the cut. If you don't wanna post to LJ, you can email it to me!!

My Cat is a Tattletale.

2009-01-08T20:04:22Z

For 2 days, my middle cat-child, Thessie, has been sqeaking at me alot. (She cant meow - don't ask). Anyway, I was worried that there was something wrong with her. This morning thought, I figured out the problem - She is "telling" on her little brother, Iggy. Anytime she is has been bothered by him or he won't play with her the way she wants. It is the strangest thing I have ever seen.

Is it wrong to be proud of a rejection letter?

2009-01-03T03:05:50Z

So, after months of just assuming that they didn't even bother, I got a response from the Andrea Brown Literary Agency regarding Saving Sabrina. It was a rejection. But my heart still jumped with joy and I really feel (finally) like I am on the right track artistically. When I first began researching agents, Ms. Laughran was the first that really made me think, "I would love to work with this woman." Honestly, by the end of the dreaded 2008 I was beginning to question my writing ability (although I would hardly say I have been sweating over queries and the rest) But to get this kind of personalized response from her was just very uplifting for me. I can say now that my fears that no one will take me seriously have been squashed and I am more enthusiastic about 2009 than I was before.
Alright, now I am rambling. :)

Dear Michelle,

I am so sorry that it has taken me such a long time to respond to SAVING SABRINA. The truth is, I was going around and around about this, because while there are lots of things to love here, I just didn't feel that "spark" that I need to feel in order to take on a new client. I will have to reluctantly pass, but I think you are a good writer and look forward to reading all about your successes!

Very best of luck,

Jennifer

--
Jennifer Laughran
Andrea Brown Literary Agency

In other news, I am finished with the foundation of book 2. No, I have not finished writing it, but I now know where Sabrina and Riley will be traveling and the wonders they will encounter on their adventure. Hopefully I will get the third book outlined soon and I can get to the meat and potatoes of book 2. B is finally reading my finished 2nd revision of the first book and will hopefully help me write the summary. I am eager to clear my mind of the jumbled rumblings of Sabrina and her pals.

Anyway, just wanted to share my JOY!!! I hope whomever I get to represent me will make me feel as awesome about me as Jennifer did rejecting me.

Welcome 2009!!

2009-01-01T20:40:23Z

Alright, now that it has left and has no hopes of ever returning, 2008 was the worst house guest I ever had. It came on with a vengeance, promising all kinds of life altering ideas. It dangled financial independence and achievement. Then it just sat on my couch and did NOTHING. Oh I asked, over and over, if it could just do the dishes or help me with a business plan. So it made a few calls and made gas prices skyrocket to over $4.50 a gallon, then it had the audacity to say, "Now that you can't afford your vacation, you'll have plenty of time to get to those dishes." Fucker.

He wasn't without his influences. His constant taking forced me to look at new realms of creativity to keep the lights on. I was driven to write a novel, full of all the dark chaos that fills my mind. I started using my sewing machine. I was introduced to the exhilarating and velvetta-ee world of Twilight (which actually sparked a turning point for my financial future). I began attending the Liquor-of-the-Month Club meetings with purplicious1 and coreopsis which are not necessarily just monthly, but tasty and fun. I also filtered some people out of my life that were causing me stress and irritation.

And it wasn't like 2008 didn't try to make good in the end. He managed to get gas to go back down, arranged for me to attend the beautiful wedding of my sister, and enabled me to create some custom goodies that put wrapped presents under the Christmas tree. He also put me in contact with an old friend I haven't seen in over 22 years (and after catching up with her, I really wish we lived closer cause she rocks!!) He final gift was allowing me to have great friends over to ring in his enthusiastic sister, 2009, as she takes his place for the next 365 days.

So for 2009, I don't want to make resolutions. But I will make some predictions. When 2010 gets here, I will be healthier and happier. I will be in a better place, both financially and mentally. I will publish short stories and have a book deal for Saving Sabrina. I will be finished with the sequel and well on my way to an entirely different mindset of stories. I will be the mother of a driving teenager (and therefore I will be completely white headed.) And I will look back and be grateful for all the opportunities, accomplishments and companions that have seen me to the end of another year.

OMG

2008-12-23T20:22:01Z

30-Day Husband Encouragement Challenge for Wives

Ok, a mutual friend is "selling" this on Facebook, so I decided to check it out.

After laughing so hard that it made my tooth hurt, I began to feel very disgusted and dirty. If your husband requires you to take on a Stepford -like quality to achieve in this world, than it probably isn't worth the effort. He is tries to tell you that all his short comings are from a lack of your support and encouragement, then you are a doormat and you should have fun with your next 30 days.

Day 7 - Top Ten Things to Do Without Power

2008-12-11T04:34:51Z

Today's prompt is to list 12 things you can do with no power, but since sleep and sex are 1 and 2 on everyone's list I will just offer them up as freebies. So on to the Top Ten:

Day 7- Top Ten Things To Do Without Power

1. Barbecue. You don't have to be a Texan to appreciate some char-broiled, medium rare meat searing on over an open flame. Wrap some potatoes in foil and oil up some corn on the cob and you have yourself a feast. Bon Appetit, Y'all

2. Read (by sunlight OR candlelight) - Barbaric, I know. In a day where kids cannot seem speak in full words, let alone proper English, one would wonder if this is even still possible. For me, reading is a wonderful escape to the far corners of my mind, releasing imagery and ideas that breed into unspeakable evils. Oh wait, that doesn't really happen. Really. I swear.

3. Get Crafty. Odds are that grandma taught you a handicraft - knitting, sewing, painting, whatever. Grab some needles and go to town. Creating with your hands stimulates the mind, increasing your cognitive thinking and allowing for elaborate problem solving. Who knows, once you finish that scarf your knitting, you might figure out how to harness the power of dog poo to generate electricity so you can get back to surfing the net.

4. Create your own board game. Use the pieces of existing games and build your own. Or create a hybrid game that uses techniques from multiple games. Better yet, break into the wedding wine and make it a drinking game until the power company gets their heads out of their asses.

5. Take karaoke to a whole new level. Gather all the acoustic instruments you can find and play rock band a capella style. It might be hard to take at first,, but just finish off the wedding wine and you will be fine.

6. Take a hike. Literally. In a rural area, explore the less dense wooded areas. If your in an urban jungle, try walking somewhere you've never been before (just keep track of your lefts and rights so you can get home again.)

7. Relax in the yard. Take advantage of the pit stop from the information superhighway and lay down in the grass in your yard. Stare at the sky. Try to make things appear or disappear using just your mind.

8. Finish your f*cking novel. You have been putting it off for months. Now you have nothing but time.

9. Act out scenes from your favorite plays and movies. Your friends will love this, especially when you finally reveal your absolute love for the musical. They won't care that you can't sing. Honest.

10. Make a note reminding yourself to google "activities to do without power" so you never end up like this again.

[Honestly, it is think kind of writing assignment that makes me want to break my fingers. I am sure that it has a point and hones some skill, but it pisses me off.]

Tomorrow entry: Make a list of 40 things that happened this month, then pick one and write about it.

Holiday House

2008-12-10T06:29:18Z

If the producers of House do not wish to receive a whole shit load of angry letters from me, they will let Cuddy keep THIS infant.